What We Have Left

One of the things that matters to me a great deal is keeping memories of Mikael alive. I need to talk about him and this is something that has been shared with me by other grieving mothers. We need to speak about them and share who they were. It isn’t that much different from other mothers who also chat about their kids. The difference for us is that we can’t talk about their present or their future. We can’t share about what their plans are or what they just said to us on the phone the other day. For us, this has all been erased in one fell swoop. All we have is the past. We have all of our memories of everything they did and said and our memories of who they were. And we hold all of these memories close to our hearts and need to share them with others. This is how we ensure that our children are never forgotten. I will never stop talking about Mikael any more than any other mother would stop talking about their children. He is alive in my heart and I will keep sharing stories of who he was until the day I die.

One of the things that I will tell you about Mikael today is what a wonderful uncle he was. He never ignored his nieces when he came over to visit. Instead, he would get right down on the floor with them and play whatever game they were involved with at the time. He would read with them, help them with puzzles, build their train set, swing them around in blankets. He was a lot of fun!