When We Can’t

I can’t do it! There are circumstances for each of us in which this is our immediate thought process. Recently I was in a position where I had to do a number of things I thought I couldn’t. I was left with no choice; counting on God to help me complete tasks that seemed insurmountable. It has brought me to a place of deeper contemplation about what I legitimately can and cannot do. Without a doubt, before Mikael died, I thought I could never survive losing one of my children. Isn’t that what every parent thinks? We are unable to survive this loss. We simply can’t! And yet, here we are. Still living. Still breathing. Still feeling. Our hearts relentlessly keep on beating. We are left with a choice. How will we continue? How will we keep marching forward? What will we fill our endlessly beating hearts with? I can only find God as my answer; to fill my heart and my soul and to provide meaning to my life as I take one step after the other. Every step with God’s help and every step to do what he has before me to do for this one day where my heart keeps beating. In the aftermath of every impossible situation, every horrific tragedy, every soul crushing experience, when we can’t, God can.